You need immediate help.   I've seen people driven to acts of extreme depravity because of their desperate desire for headgear.  I suggest you contact a trained hat counsellor right away.   With professional help you can be weaned off this worrying dependence via a 12 step programme, starting with a ten gallon hat, then cutting back to a top hat, a Panama, a baseball cap and so on, until you are completely free of this strange and destructive habit.